Hello Insomnia, My Fiend

I was dabbling with writing a few choice words to my nemesis - insomnia. While scribbling a few lines I was drawn to two other classical odes of yore...

One was "Hello Darkness, My Friend" by Simon and Garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

This was however not quite my problem. What wouldn't I give for 'the sound of silence'? My issues were quite the opposite. I was disturbed by every whisper in the dark and was wide awake waiting for them, listening to them. I can hear everything from Wifey's rhythmic breathing to the cacophonic plumbing orchestra all over the house.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

Yeah. This makes more sense. Except that this just wasn't me in a restless dream. This was me wide awake with closed eyes. The neon light is the LED reminder by the comprehensively evil digital clock. Maybe I should watch TV... has never helped. Maybe I should wake Wifey... will never help. Should I dwell about loneliness a la Amithabh in Silsila, the second ode in my thoughts?

Main aur meri thanhayi, aksar yeh baatein kartein hain

Tum hothi tho kaisa hotha, thum yeh kahthi, thum woh kahthi

Me and my loneliness often discuss about this

How nice it would be if you were here,

You would talk about this and that...

Nope. That's really not my problem and I am not really feeling lonely. I am just frustrated that I am awake at 1:20 AM and have only 4:40 before the alarm goes off. Main aur meri majboori aksar jaagthe rahthe hain... was it the the second espresso or was it the last email? Why am I up without a plausible reason?

I now go back to S&G,

In the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,

Its 2:10 AM, 3:50 hours of sleep if you doze off right now... Here's a happy thought Insomnia has hardly stuck on weekends or two days in succession. Happy thoughts... Tomorrow night is my night... the night insomnia is no where in sight.

1 comment:

  1. Anonymous10:53 PM

    Why does insomnia happen? The answer is not always clear, sometimes it is caused by stress and other times there might be no apparent reason. There are ways you can improve both the quality and length of your sleep and break free of your patterns of poor sleep habits. You need not fear the night.